I have been a baptised Christian since I was about 17. I believed I had a good understanding of God, but I later realized that my knowledge of Him was limited and largely shaped by what I had been taught. It wasn’t until 2016 that I truly began to experience a deeper relationship with Him. Ministry had always held a special place in my heart, and I consistently sensed God’s calling for me to step into it. However, alongside that calling, I carried a burden of anxiety. I spent a lot of time in my head rationalising who I was in the body of Christ.

Then came the moment, I remember seeing myself in the spirit bound by chains and my mouth was impaired to the point where I couldn’t speak. A golden tablet appeared before me and on it, the Holy scriptures were inscribed. I heard a voice in the darkness, it said, “Speak the word” and as I stared at the tablet, I tried but no words came out. Again, the voice said, “Speak the word” but still I was bound. The third and final time the voice thundered, “Speak the word” and at that moment the chains broke, and I was set free.

As I began to speak a beautiful realm opened around me and I saw the presence of Angels surrounding me. It was an emphatic call to ministry, one that simply could not be ignored. Ever since that moment, I have been walking in alignment with the Spirit of God and through his guidance, my purpose within the body has become clear.

My calling wasn’t devoid of pain. I have spent a lot of time in the valley of the shadows of death. I met a lot of monsters there: anxiety, depression, and a whole host of physical ailments. There have even been moments when I needed steroid injections for parts of my body to function properly. However, I have honoured the fact that a life of faith is intimately connected to the cross. Furthermore, one of the key lessons I’ve learnt is that you can’t truly heal if you haven’t experienced the depths of brokenness yourself. Subsequently, I look at every single experience and appreciate the value they’ve held on this incredible journey.

2020 I was diagnosed with spasmodic dysphonia and laryngeal tremor. A neurological condition that impaired my voice. It was at this time that the Lord took me on a journey through the realm of the Spirit. My eyes were open to a new kind of understanding, and I began to see the way my Heavenly Father sees, his Spirit spoke through me, and I began to realize I had to die physically to experience that spiritual increase.

So, what I bring to you comes from the heart of God. It’s a personal love letter, an invitation for you to know Him as intimately as I do. It is an encouragement to embark on your own journey of seeking Him. He desires a meaningful relationship with you, and as a humble servant, I feel blessed to be the one guiding you on your path to accepting this divine invitation.